In the pursuit of happiness

Written on April 10^th, 2007
Every time that I take my keyboard and open a new blank, Word document my brain is crammed with ideas and all sorts of things that I wish to write. Fortunately I manage to tie them up somehow, in one – sort of logical – post. Unfortunately, there are always some that fade away. I will try to break this rule now.

What’s the role of a blog? Why do people keep them? (I can imagine at least hundreds of reasons) Why do I do it? Because I hoped one day (and still do) that this can be a place where I can be sincere, true, whole… and where I can think and express my thoughts in the only way that it’s fair to do it: complete, without a shred of mist. Is it safe? I contemplated this issue some minutes ago… Is it really safe to be in such a way in a semi-public place? In a place where anyone can come and see how you really are, even if it’s someone that you invited (or not) and to who you want to be (and are) true; or it’s someone that should (for a certain reason or not) believe that you are different, or better, or worse, or more, or less…

Coming back to the title: in the pursuit of happiness. I must be entering a new life stage or something like that because, suddenly, I start talking (or actively participating in discussions) about the “long term”. Whether it’s about personal or professional life, words are starting to transform: relationship slowly becomes similar to marriage, job with career, money with house, kids and all sorts of other (unknown to me) stuff and so on. I must confess that I find it all quite amusing, meaning that I take it all with a side dish of humor. Why is that? Mainly because that’s me and this is the way in which I’m going through life. For me it is very helpful (moreover I can feel this help)

We all seek happiness (and I know that I’ve tackled this issue before – and I will continue to do so because it is so appealing to me). We can only be happy while feeling comfortable (not physically, but rather psychologically). From the two seeds - that are represented by these two sentences - our life grows: we learn so we can find a job that fulfills our aspirations; we strive to get promoted to reach financial safety, we marry to have a comfortable home, we make children to give and receive love et cetera. These are only a few examples. I’m sure that each and every human being can find the appropriate examples for oneself. We (humans) will never reach the ultimate level of happiness because the human being is constructed in such a manner that it will always be possible for each of us to find things that we don’t like in our lives (or at least things that we want to improve).

Food for thought: the lyrics of Gheorghe Dinica – “Sunt vagabondul vietii mele”

I went back home for Easter. Three nights spent in Galati: I slept one of them and drank the rest. I met with my old gang (or what’s left of it… the most important part of it anyway) and I could see best friends that were, are and probably will forever be best friends. I could see best friends that are now just beer-friends or even less. I could see a lot of things; but what I have lived is one of those nights. One of those magical nights that I sometimes believe I will never again have the chance of living. I lived a table of friends covered with bottles of beer and surrounded by us. We did not have to talk (and we didn’t) in those magical moments. Those moments tell me how good we are together and how we connect at a different level. It was magnificent and I can only hope that we all get to live another night (and then another, and yet another…) like that and like some many others that have been. I love you guys… forever will.

Food for thought: “Love actually is… all around” just look; you will find it