On happiness and personal development

Written on March 10^th, 2007
I’ve just arrived home today only to find (to realize, actually) that I was feeling something that I haven’t felt in a while: I was happy. But not that kind of happiness that lasts for half an hour because I then realize that whatever-something got wrong or that I have to do some-stuff for which I don’t have time and so on. I’m talking about that happiness that is pure; that, it seems, will last forever; that one which I can feel with the whole of my body.

Then, as I was actually enjoying myself, the inevitable question appeared: “Why?” Why am I happy? Before I could get the chance of answering that question to myself, I spoke over the phone with my dearest. I love it when I say stuff that I haven’t thought of properly beforehand. I love it because it helps me realize just what it is that I’m feeling. And then I can use this knowledge. This is exactly what happened now.

I am happy because I have the feeling that I’m moving ahead; ahead in my life and ahead in my dreams. I wrote something earlier today… It was a sort of definition, although I’m not sure if anyone said it before or I just made it up. It goes like this: self realization = a state of mind defined by constant happiness and satisfaction that acts as a basis for healthy, continuous personal development.

The way I see it now, it was an anticipation of my current state of mind. And I can say, now, that I am in this state of mind, as described, for, although I did not meet my dreams or my lifelong goals yet, I am feeling the growth, the clear steps that I’m taking in that direction. And that gives me this state of mind.

Food for thought: Option “a”: Your instincts are always right and, thus, trustworthy. It’s only a matter of how much credit you give them. Option “b”: Only after your instincts prove themselves to you, you can really trust them. Which of these options is correct?