The torments of a trapped soul

I long for Life! Even though I had an undetermined period of being depressive (in the most clinical way, if you ask me), I’ve always loved Life. There were times when I didn’t quite love my life, but loved to live nonetheless. And another thing: I’ve always (since I can remember) loved the “why?”s. I’ve always loved jokes, to make fun, to say subtle lines (or to hear them) that make you (at least in the ideal case) realize that what you see is not entirely what you get (sorry WYSIWYG fans). I’ve always loved hair and lately I love “Hair” performed by Atmosphere. I’ve always loved fun and, as a great friend of mine said quite recently, there were times when I would have sold “my house” for a little fun. I love Life… and I long for Life!

I don’t know if it’s an age thing, but lately (actually for quite a while now) I started focusing so much on myself that I missed focusing on other people. I always had a romantic (in the sense of Romanticism as the art movement) approach to drawing opinions or conclusions from observing random or specific people and how they behave in various situations. And that is because, on one hand, I love people and, as I stated also on this blog, I would gladly commit my life to “making people better”. On the other hand, people are strange animals (or if you prefer, entities) that speak of logic when they are the inventors, the promoters and the benchmark (if ever there was one) of irrationality. I love people and I love Life!

Now, for another corporatist interlude, my company’s descriptor (or however it is called) is “Know. Accelerate. Perform.” Like almost everything else that has to do with this company, I partly agree with this statement. Partly in the sense that I agree with the words used, but would change the order, because it’s much better if you accelerate your gaining of knowledge so that you perform better. So “Accelerate. Know. Perform.” it is! This reminds me of the “one-degree change” that is so much mentioned by my fellow AIESECers.

Food for thought: For ten minutes every day, stop everything and do nothing. Close yourself from the outside world. Now try listening to your thoughts. Do you trust and follow them? It’s a pity if you aren’t, because it’s YOU that’s talking.